Bliss

I had long gotten over the anxiety of stepping into a relationship. I had realised that you were, different and one bazillion times better than any boy I had ever met. You were beautiful. In every single way lol. You made me feel so special, like I was the only thing that ever mattered to you. We went on many dates and each one I came home feeling like two bite up shillings. But I wondered how into me you really were for you wouldn't kiss me, but in the end I'm glad you waited because every kiss now is magical to me. Nothing could stop us, not even crappy external exams :P.
You also gave me comfort when I never even felt welcome in my own home. You are the reason I smile today. I grew to love you very soon babe, I never want to ever lose you.

I wish, I wish upon a star

Great friends we had been thus far, life was happier on my end. We spent every available in our company and things were amazing. You had seemed so perfect, almost impossible. You had every quality I could ever as for, and more. I yearned to be just .. more.

Every night I would set my alarm, so that I could come online to talk to you after my daily naps. I every eyelash, every star I wished upon for a dream that seemed so close, yet so far. 

But on one very dark night, as I routinely signed in, something big was to occur. One that changed my life completely but for the better.
So 1:11 am came and I asked for a wish, in the back of my head I wished for you. By chance and curiosity I asked what you wished too. As you replied, my eyes got wide and my body filled with excitement, joy even. My wish had come true!
But it had been so long since I felt this, that anxiety also filled inside me. Fear of getting hurt once more. But this feeling for you was so strong, I couldn't deny it. I yearned to be with you. 
25 April 2011


Ps. I was so glad to have found out that you had felt the same way about me. Ever since the day we met I was just hoping that we would be more than friends. I count my blessing stars for everyday that we share. 

The Green Eyes

You had never treated me like I was too strange or too different to be your friend. As I entered that dark room, I found myself searching for you. Alas! You were right in front of me, not the tall, dark and handsome hunk that every other girl has been searching for, but the sweet, humble, kind person you are. Not to mention you were cute >.< it felt so good to have finally met you. Your pretty green eyes left me enchanted, though i thought they were blue for a moment lol, but nonetheless you left me mesmerized.  

You were so cool and so chill, goofy sometimes too. I could not imagine how I had really come across you. As we sat there alone, I said "Wow, he's such a great guy." I made it my business now, to see you whenever I could. Everyday we spent together seemed like the best day of my life. 

You were so nice to me, you were interested in me, and only me, not what I had to offer to your fantasies. There was no limit to how much time I could have spent with you, it seemed like there was not enough hours in one day. The point where it seemed like I knew you for years had occurred and I felt like.. I should have more of you. I felt like we should be more than just.. friends. 

Smallzin it up!

Months had passed and I thought I had forgotten about you, but i was wrong. Four long months and your image rocked my mind once again. I had to fix that empty space. I had connected with you at last. A smallz one might say. A smallz that began the rest of our friendship, and also the rest of our romance and lives. 
You were so darn cool, talented, laid back and funny. You were so welcoming of my friendship and never made me feel outcast. I felt like I knew you forever. But I needed more. I needed to enjoy your company one on one, face to face. And thus I grew the courage to ask you out.
(27 February 2011)

Our friendship since that day I smallzed it up :P

If I ever get the nerve to say Hello

It was merely for a minute, but a blush crept across my face as our eyes locked. No clue as to who you were but your image remained in my mind forever. With a small wave it was set in stone, our futures.
29 September 2010.